Speak Up

I am living in Houston now after spending six months living with my boyfriend and later fiance in Bryan, Texas. I am broken-hearted and lost because I just found out from his family and friends that meth stole his life from him ten years ago. The meth that he did permanently damaged him. He now takes medicine for anxiety which he is also addicted to, which proves that meth ruins the addiction portion of the brain as well as what makes one anxious. When sleeping next to him he would twitch and flail for about ten minutes before he would fall asleep. I never knew why any of these things happened...I thought it was just his psychiatric diagnosis. Little did I know that the meth had made him have that diagnosis. It ripped apart his entire family whom I became very close to over the year that I was with him. I love those people and they miss me and wish he could have seen that I was the best thing that has ever happened to him. Yes he cried over the note I left him when I left our room, but he would rather have nobody to answer to so that he can smoke and drink and feed his addictions. His friends are now telling me that all he talks about and has been talking about behind my back is getting "messed up." He cares about that more than the girl he claims to have loved. When he was with me he was normal but meth has created such a hold on him that he is now addicted to everything and that ruled me out. My name is Erika and I'm 25 years old and I just lost my love to meth.