Speak Up

Im 17 years old and I have a 1 month old baby. I live with my dad and my mom. My mom was a meth user 12 years ago and she stopped, now she's doing it again. She started off by doing weird things around the house or cleaning random things; my mom would always be carpet cleaning everyday, she had to carpet clean the beds and the couches and her car. My mom would leave the house around 8 or 9pm and wouldn't come home until 2, 3, or somethings 4 in the morning and her excuse was she was feeding stray cats. Which we found very weird to be feeding cats around that time. We would find baggies of meth in her car but she would make up so many excuses like they were my friends, someone stepped on it and brought it in. My mom would lose her keys everyday and blame my dad saying he took them. She would always lose her money and accuse me of stealing it. My mom would take baths for 1-2 hours everyday around 2 or 3 in the morning, she always would have to brush her teeth at least 2 or 3 times. I noticed she started to put a towel under the door when she showered. My dad finally got fed up with her and got the courts involved. He tried to put a restraining order on her but they couldn't give it to him because there was no domestic violence. My mom said my dad was getting the courts involved because he was supposedly cheating, but my mom would never let my dad see her phone. She had three phones and they all had passwords to get in.

When the courts didn't grant the restraining order that night my mom didn't come home. She didn't come for a couple days and we had no clue where she was. She came home the next day like it was normal for her to be gone. My dad got a lawyer to get a divorce but he had to wait a couple months for court and my mom continued to get worse from three days not coming home it would turn into 5 and when she could come she would just shower get ready and leave again. We asked her where she was going she said she was sleeping in her car. One day my dad took the car he pays for away from my mom and changed the key ignition and we found a sock with residue and burn marks and half of a straw in the car. My mom didn't come home for another 5 days and today she came around 10 o'clock asking to see my baby but I wouldn't let her, and she just took off. I don't know the next time I will see her, I just wish she would admit and get help.