Speak Up

One night last year, I was so bored at home. A guy invited me to his apartment to have a small chat but I knew where that was heading to - a one night stand. He used to live in a very prestigious penthouse within the heart of the city as he was an expat working for oil and gas. We had a good talk for a few hours until he showed me a small black box that contains all kinds of recreational drugs including meth. He said that it would give me the best night of my life. I gave it a puff. I would consider that as my most memorable and intimate session - they call it here, chill.

Not until I realized that every week, even after he migrated to another country that I have been looking forward into my weekends. Why? Because I would have the chance to have a taste of meth again. I used to invite strangers to my house to have a chill session with. I would use up my savings to buy this stuff for the sake of satisfying my cravings.

After almost half a year of doing it on a weekly basis, my friends started noticing the dryness of my skin, the breakouts. I could not concentrate at work anymore, considering it requires complex analytical skill. I lost the muscle I have worked hard at the gym and have been eating trashy and full of sweets to compensate the satisfaction when I was not on meth.

It was then that I realized that my cardiac arrhythmia has gone worse. Prior to using meth, I have a very weak sign of abnormal rhythmic cardiac pattern because of rheumatic heart disease. Good thing I found a way to get out of it. I am nearing my 5th month of being clean from any kinds of drugs and have set my foot back at the gym, eating very healthily. Unfortunately, the arrhythmia is still here. I am hoping for the least that it would return to almost normal in a year or so.

This time, even I say, "Charge it to experience", it has the possibility that I may just faint somewhere because of my weak heart as the new tests show. Consider that a lesson to everyone so you don't have to endure this possible very risky health condition.