
Age: 19
Gender: Female
Location: Kalispell, MT
"I used to do meth. This June will be my first year of sobriety. I first started two summers ago. I had my first hit. It was crazy because I came down about 7 days later and I realized I hadn't slept at all or eaten anything. I had just smoked meth again and again until our sack ran out. That was the longest I had stayed up during my time of using, but still I would stay up for 4,5 and 6 days at a time. I lost 43 pounds in 60 days. I thought I looked beautiful but when I look at pictures from that time, I was hideous. I stole a lot of things from my family. It was so hard to get sober. I went out of the country for a few months and didn't use at all. But then the first day I returned home, I saw my friends, and bought more meth, and smoked it and snorted it for another 6 months. I am sober now but I have nightmares still, and cravings. Meth is always in the back of my mind. It's haunting. When new people ask me what it was like being addicted, I just shake my head and say 'Please trust me, don't try it, not even once. When I had my first hit, I just forgot I didn't want to be a meth-head.'"